FEELING FREE TO BEGIN A NEW BLOG ABOUT MY MOM

MY MOM AND DAD ON THEIR HONEYMOON IN FLORIDA

This is a wonderful photo of my Mom and Dad on their honeymoon in Florida.  They looked so sweet and happy and at the most joyous part of their lives.  No one knew, not even them, that their fate and genetics would effect so many lives and those lives would be impacted and shattered by their love.
It's been 5 months since my Mom passed away and I still have so much inside of my heart relating to my experience of that time,  so I have decided that I am going to start a blog about my MOM and my relationship with her.  I've been so bogged down by emotions and sadness that it has been effecting my ability to think clearly, create and to write.  The blog will be called MY MOM MATTERS and it will speak to my feelings that my Mom does and did matter to me and if you knew her, I think she would matter to you.  This new blog will be a place for comfort for me and I hope it will be for others as well.  I will share the things that I remember about my Mom and the things I don't want to remember.  It will be about Mother and daughter relationships and how much genetics effect our lives.  It will be about loving and loss. There will be intense stories about our interaction and emotionally saddening experiences that I have trouble thinking about still.  This new blog will free me up to be able to write and create which I surely need.

When I start this new blog MY MOM MATTERS, I will post on this blog to let you know.   Take a peek at it and let me know how it effects you.

Soon I will begin to post content on this blog without the weight of grieving and sadness.   I'm looking forward to this lightness of being!

soon,
Loren

Beginning life and living without my Mom

It’s been quite a while since I have posted anything on my blog and I want to fill you in on what’s been happening over here at Loren Fidalgo mind giggles TM.

I've wanted to write on my blog and let you know that for some reason, I am finding that I am at a total loss for words that make some sense lately.  I have not mentioned on this blog or my other blog  Loren Fidalgo Designs,  that I am mourning the loss of my beloved Mom.   She passed away on May 6th of this year. It's only been less than three months and I’m really having a hard time writing about how I feel about anything very deep or painful. I have been having a block about organizing my thoughts about this loss. I do not feel ready to write about my Mom right now, and I hope I will be sometime soon. It's as if I am stuck in this mode verbally, and I can't write about anything else and move forward, until I express my grieving and honor her life.  (I am tearing up just writing this post). I miss my Mom terribly and I want to share my story about her and my relationship with her. Her name was Marilyn and she was a very unique and extraordinary person.  Her story is a fascinating and an extremely interesting one, and one that will have you thinking deeply about your own ”life” and what exactly makes up a “life”on this earth.
 

ME, MY MOM AND MY SISTER DAWN
somewnere around 1996

So, please be patient with me while I find and navigate my way to telling Marilyn’s story. 

I Love You, Mom.