THE COUNTDOWN IS ON

The first assignment is almost here for the Global Talent Search sponsored by Lilla Rogers Studio and I am so excited I can hardly contain my enthusiasm.  The anticipation is killing me!  I have been thinking over and over what the assignment could be and the answer eludes me.  I was thinking that it might be designing a party ensemble such as plate, napkin, cup, centerpiece, invites and gift bags. Oh, how cool would that be? But how do I know what will be the assignment for the contest?  I think trying to solve the question quells my anticipation.  I love to bounce ideas around and while I am painting, it's like a game to ponder the possibilities.
I think about all the talented artists that have signed up for this contest. and I wonder where I fall amongst them?  There is no way to know what plan they are hatching in the Lilla Rogers Studio, so I realize that it is endless trying to figure out what that will be.  But for me, for some reason, it's fun!  It's fun to contemplate all the different scenarios and wonder what the assignment will be.
For now, I will be shuffling around all the ideas in my mind and hope that one of the ideas I think of is the chosen assignment. That would be really cool?
Stay tuned...

NEW BLOG FOR MY MOM IS POSTED

Hello there...
Recently,  I have been posting on this blog about the loss of my precious Mom, Marilyn and how I am trying to emotionally cope with her passing. For some reason, the intense emotion I have from her passing has been getting in the way of me being able to write. I was so stuck in one place that I couldn't express anything else that was on my mind.  Although I have been consistently creating and making art, I have been bogged down whenever I was trying to write.  The sadness about my Mom kept me locked in one place and I have been learning that the written word is much more powerful than I ever imagined.  Thoughts and ideas can come out like a flood or they can become stifled and stuck on a thought or emotion. I have never thought of myself as a writer, although my husband Paul believes I am (but he doesn't count). Blogging has been pulling out feelings and emotions deep inside my heart and forcing me to confront a form of communication that is still new to me.   I have so much to say and then I have nothing to say... so,  I will try to carry on and try to embrace the written word.  I will embrace my sadness and feelings and realize that I can do all three.  I can feel, I can write and I can create.  Go figure!!

For now, I wanted to let you know that my Mom's blog My Mom Matters, is up on the web and I have published the first post. Yeah!!! her story has a home now.  Any other information about my Mom and our extraordinary relationship can be found at here.  Thank you to everyone who has been following my posts about my Mom and for having an interest in her story because My Mom Matters.   If you have any experiences or insights through the loss of a loved one or has a mental or neurological illness touched your life, please fly on over to my Mom's blog and share with the readers, your unique story, because your loved one matters, too.  My Mom Matters will feature stories, memories and my lessons about how my Mom and I developed our strong and unique bond of love.   It had withstood the test of separation during my entire childhood and my Mom's long illness and hospitalization.  Sometimes our stories are sad, sometimes they are funny but always, they are thought provoking and meaningful.   I hope to see you there.http://mymommatters.blogspot.com/

Beginning life and living without my Mom

It’s been quite a while since I have posted anything on my blog and I want to fill you in on what’s been happening over here at Loren Fidalgo mind giggles TM.

I've wanted to write on my blog and let you know that for some reason, I am finding that I am at a total loss for words that make some sense lately.  I have not mentioned on this blog or my other blog  Loren Fidalgo Designs,  that I am mourning the loss of my beloved Mom.   She passed away on May 6th of this year. It's only been less than three months and I’m really having a hard time writing about how I feel about anything very deep or painful. I have been having a block about organizing my thoughts about this loss. I do not feel ready to write about my Mom right now, and I hope I will be sometime soon. It's as if I am stuck in this mode verbally, and I can't write about anything else and move forward, until I express my grieving and honor her life.  (I am tearing up just writing this post). I miss my Mom terribly and I want to share my story about her and my relationship with her. Her name was Marilyn and she was a very unique and extraordinary person.  Her story is a fascinating and an extremely interesting one, and one that will have you thinking deeply about your own ”life” and what exactly makes up a “life”on this earth.
 

ME, MY MOM AND MY SISTER DAWN
somewnere around 1996

So, please be patient with me while I find and navigate my way to telling Marilyn’s story. 

I Love You, Mom.